Tuesday, January 5, 2016

How He Leads Me - December 9, 2015

December 9, 2015

(To Heaven and Back Again series)

When you accept Christ as Lord and Savior, the Bible tells us that we are “born again.” Our spirit is joined and sealed with the Holy Spirit inside; we are a new being. This is why we are sons of God, we have His Spirit within us. If we feed our minds and spirit by reading the word of God and ask Him to help us, we begin to slowly evolve. “I will put my laws in their minds and write it on their hearts” (Jeremiah 31:33) It is our choice weather we let this metamorphosis occur.

Since my calling, I have noticed these changes are happening quite rapidly. Each day I plan out what I will do, but often the Holy Spirit guides me into something else. This evolution is even effecting my entertainment: shows I once loved, now seem... unimportant or even distasteful. On more than one occasion I have also found myself unable to quote certain Bible verses to support my beliefs – I will be planning out what to say. I open my mouth and nothing comes out. Other verses spring to mind with an alternate argument: I use those instead.


During our monthly meeting at the Bombay Grill in downtown Boise I tell Craig about the swift-moving transformation. He smiles, “It sounds like God is grooming you for your new position.”

“He is sure doing something. Speaking of doing something… last time we met, you asked several times if there was anything else you could help me with.” I ease into the request that has come upon my heart, “Are you still willing to help? There may be something you can do, but it is big… like really, really big – monumental.”

He nods, “Sure. I’d love to help – what do you need.”

I tell him, “It has come to my attention lately that having someone actually see Jesus assign me as His prophet may be a very good idea. I can’t say for sure if this is His will, but if it is, would you like to follow me up to Heaven and be there when Jesus anoints me?”

Craig is quiet for quite some time as we begin to serve ourselves from the buffet. Finally he speaks, “I’d love to say, ‘That sounds great!’ but honestly, my first thought is that it sounds a little scary. I’m not saying no. If that is what God wants, then of course I will do it. I might be just a little afraid if it does happen.”

I nod, he after all has felt God’s presence. If I had, maybe I’d be a little more cautious. “I’ve read a few books lately about people who have gone to Heaven. One was a story about a guy who would worship God and then hear the Lord say, ‘Come up here’ and he would be taken to Heaven to speak with Jesus. On his first trip, he said he became afraid as his spirit left his body and began racing across the sky. His progress slowed. When he looked and saw an angel next to him, he was reassured and the progress picked up again. I don’t think being a little frightened by the experience will stop it from happening – it’s probably pretty normal.”

“That’s good. Does this mean I will get to see an angel if I go to Heaven?” He asks.
I smile, “You might. Some people do and some don’t. Seems like there is a pretty good chance, though since you have already seen one. You know, in this you are a bit ahead of me: you know what His presence is like, I have never felt the fullness of it.”

Craig nods, “My life has been changing, too, since that experience. At Thanksgiving I felt let to tell my dad that I wasn’t attending church anymore.” 

“Oh, did he say he was glad that you were finding your own path?” I ask.

A bark of laughter escapes him, “More like, ‘You have to go to church, you have to go to church, you have to go to church.’ It was a tough decision to tell him. The last time I stopped going he didn’t speak to me for years. I know I didn’t have to say anything thing, but I kept getting this feeling that I had to tell him.”

“It is quite interesting that you declared your feelings about your faith and where you want to go to your family’s church just as I realized that the Lord may want witnesses to the assignment as His prophet.”

Our discussion continued as we had a most enjoyable lunch together. By the time we parted ways Craig tells me, “You know, the thought of going to Heaven doesn’t scare me anymore. I’m pretty excited about it!”


The leading of the Holy Spirit continued throughout the week. Mom was visiting me and would be leaving on Tuesday. We were considering taking in a show. None of the movies look enticing when I looked at them later that day. The Letters – a movie about the life of Mother Theresa caught my attention. I’m not Catholic and know very little about Saint Theresa. I dismiss the thoughts of going to that show: watching a movie about starving and suffering is not my idea of entertainment. It is so very hard on my heart to see such suffering; it is almost physically painful.

On Saturday I find myself asking Mom if she would like see The Letters. It is an inexplicable urging from the inside - I don't think about it, I just do it. On the way there I feel an energy in my stomach and tingling in my arms and legs. It is like my stomach muscles are doing crunches, yet they are relaxed.

I broach a topic that has been buzzing around the fringes of my mind, “Mom, I’ve have this idea that is greatly out of character with my usual beliefs. I’m not sure if they are from God or me.”

“What is your idea?” she asks.

“You know God has been correcting me about my wardrobe – I can’t wear low cut shirts that show my cleavage anymore or even run into the grocery store for milk without a bra: heck, I even wear pants under my long PJ shirts even though they cover my butt. Now this idea has come to me that I should wear scarves all the time, especially when I am working as His prophet.” I sigh.

“I love scarves,” Mom says, “they are so colorful and come in so many different patterns. It sounds like a great idea to me.”

“I have become fond of scarves over the last year or so, but this is more than that. Remember what the Bible says about Paul’s scarves:


Acts 19:11 
God was doing extraordinary and unusual miracles by the hands of Paul, so that even handkerchiefs or face-towels or aprons that had touched his skin were brought to the sick, and their diseases left them and the evil spirits came out [of them].

I continue to explain, “I know that there are some churches that send cloths to people, but I’ve never believed this is necessary. Today we have the internet, television, and a phone where we can speak to people across the world. Back in Paul’s time all he could do is send something that was his, he couldn’t make a phone call. I guess I just don’t see why God would want me to wear scarves.”

Mom shrugs off the dilemma, “I am sure we will find out when He wants us to know. Until then, I still think the idea is a good one.”

Before the movie starts Mom and I pray for God’s wisdom and discernment for what we are about to see. I learned a few things during this movie, the most important thing being this:

When Mother Theresa felt she heard the actual voice of God she had to submit the calling to her superiors before pursuing it. It took two years for them to decide to let her go in the direction the Lord had spoken to her about. While she waited, Mother Theresa said, “I will pray. It is truly God’s will, it shall be.” All she did is pray and wait. This gave me great hope. I feel that I know what God’s will is, so now I wait for Him to do it and pray.

After the show I told Mom, “Some thoughts came to my mind as I watched Mother Theresa interact with the poorest of the poor. I had heard that right now there are kids in South Africa and India who make mud-pies and eat them. They have nothing else to eat. The dirt clogs up their intestines and they wind up dying before they are grown.

“As this memory came to me, so did a picture in my mind: I saw mud-pies on a wooden board. A scarf was placed over them. When it was taken away, bread lay beneath it. The mud-pies had been turned to bread!”

“Wouldn’t that be something!” Mom says.

“It would! And it is Biblical. Satan tempted Jesus in the desert saying, ‘If you are the Son of God, command that these stones become bread.’ (Matthew 4:3) It wouldn’t have been a temptation if He couldn’t have done it! I’m just not sure if this is God talking to me or my own mind putting things I’ve learned together.”

The next morning we went to church. Afterward we were looking for a place for lunch. On the Border had closed down, so we decided on Chapala – our favorite Mexican restaurant. When we pulled into the parking lot, on the bush beside us, there was a scarf. It looks just like one I had lost a week ago.

Did God send an angel to place that scarf there to confirm that He was speaking to me about them? My husband thinks it is just a weird coincidence.

As I write this post, that tightening in my middle and the tingling in my extremities is still present. It seems to grow day by day – especially when I focus on God. I must confess, as I count down the days until the end of this year, even with all He has done, it becomes harder and harder not to lose hope. I remind myself of the verses I’ve quoted in these last posts and the miracles He has done. 

In March of 2014 I released Angels Believe in You. This book covers the last 13 years of my life:

  • Seen Angels and Demons
  • Miracles from God (medically documented)
  • Signs from God - including hearing His audible voice

All of these signs and miracles have led me to one conclusion: I believe God has been leading me, step by tiny step, on an incredible journey leading to Heaven and Back Again, not through a NDE (near death experience) but through meditation. Yes, I know it sounds a little presumptuous, a little out there, but it was not my idea. I ask repeatedly, "If this is not Your will, please let me know. I want only what You want for my life." 

What follows is the next step in this incredible journey. All blog posts concerning this journey are available in To Heaven and Back Again which is updated as the Lord continues to take me on on this incredible journey. When I actually do go to Heaven, everyone who has bought this book will be able to download the latest copy and find out what Heaven is like.

Continue the journey with me in the other To Heaven and Back Again stories:

February 2014 - In God's Time

May 4, 2014 - God and Meditation

May 11, 2014 - A Glimpse of Heaven

May 14, 2014 - The Dance of Worship

May 21, 2014 - Where Can You Meditate?

June 7, 2014 - Preparing for Meditation

July 12, 2014 - A Solo Mission

July 20, 2014 - Biblical Support for the Journey

August 9, 2014 - What Does My Guardian Angel Look Like?

August 12, 2014 - No Time for the Pain

October 17, 2014 - The Difference Between With and Without

December 27, 2014 - What is Heaven Like? (a map)

January 4, 2015 - Many will Speak to the Lord

January 11, 2015 - How Hard do You Push?

January 18, 2015 - Questions for Christ

March 13, 2015 - A Delay in the Trip to Heaven

March 25, 2015 - Why is it Taking So Long?

September 1, 2015 - Is the Trip Still On?

September 13, 2015 -An Official Title

September 26, 2015 - The Path is Open

October 5, 2015 - Angelic Confirmation of the Appointment

October 9, 2015 - Miraculous Confirmation

November 23, 2015 - 313

December 9, 2015 - How He Leads Me

December 24, 2015 - The Last Week of 2015

January 24, 2016 - Correction, Encouragement & Dreams from the Spirit

February 21, 2016 - I'm All In


February 27, 2016 - What is a Tetrad Blood Moon Prophet

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