Wednesday, March 30, 2016

I'm All In - Feb. 21, 2016

February 21, 2016

(To Heaven and Back Again series)

On February 13th, my husband and I left for Hawaii to celebrate our 20th wedding anniversary. My husband's aunt and uncle stayed with the kids so we could have a second honeymoon. Since the “God stuff” sometimes became a burden on my husband, I decided to focus on our marriage during those ten days. 
It is not as if I stopped believing God or following Him, I just didn't focus on Him. Instead of a close friend, a constant companion, He was an acquaintance. Like many Christians, I called on Him when I needed Him and did
n't really think of Him any other time. “When I return home I will dive back in,” I told myself. After all, He has shown me amazing things and called me as His prophet, I should be eager to draw close to Him again... Right?

Monday the 21st we returned home from the Islands on one of the worst red-eye flights I have ever endured. With only two hours of sleep I took a brief  nap then spent the remainder of the day crashed on the couch watching secular TV that had been recorded on my DVR while I was gone. The next day I finished up all the recorded programs while I tended to some business items from my home office. Wednesday I had to go to the Resilient Publishing headquarters downtown. I listened to praise music while I drove. By bedtime I could feel the Holy Spirit calling me into prayer and meditation. Bible stories came to mind, and I knew the Holy Spirit was revealing them so I could put them before God in prayer. Curled up behind my husband, I pushed the thought out of my head and focused on anything I could, but not God.

The quiet voice of the Holy Spirit whispered inside my head, “Why are you avoiding God?”

Tears cascaded down my cheeks. The flood was so insistent that my nose quickly became overcome. Afraid that my sniffling would wake my husband, I eased out of bed, I took refuge in the bathroom so I wouldn't wake my husband. It took only moments in the harsh light on the cold porcelain toilet to realize that I wasn't crying because I felt bad for being distant from God, but because a part of me didn't want to go back to the intimacy we shared.

Until I stepped away from my close relationship with God on my second honeymoon, I didn't realize how lonely I had become. I felt so very good to be “normal,” to just coast along and not be concerned with anything that wasn’t an immediate need, with stuff that I couldn't share with my friends and family. It was so much easier. 

My life had become a kind of tightrope walk. I had to consider very carefully what I said to whom. It was like I couldn’t reveal my true face to anyone, even those closest to me. That was the most difficult part – keeping a lid on God with those I saw every day.

The other revelation I had recently had complicated matters: Over the last few months I had begun to realize that I was indeed becoming Reba from my book, Prophecy of the Flame. The one thing that I heard over and over about Reba is, “I really didn’t like her at first, but then I realized she had a good heart…” and “Reba isn’t the type of person I’d like to just hang with…” I now know that as my walk with God continues there will be very few people who will want to be close friends, true friends with me.
Yes, I have actually met my guardian angel and experienced some amazing things, but I couldn't share all the insights God was giving me with anyone. It always created an “overload.” They quickly grew tired of hearing about God and things related to Him – probably because everything I saw, every experience I had, the Holy Spirit would reveal God or the lack there of in that situation.

At that moment as tears rolled down my cheeks, I knew I had been given this sabbatical so I would be intimately aware of the choice before me: 

  • On one hand I had an easy life of a “normal” Christian. Our family would talk about God on Sunday after church and say prayers at the dinner table. I would be in the audience as someone else prayed for a complete healing. I would witness the awesome glory of God from afar, just as I have many times, and if I was a part of it, it would be minor.
  • On the other hand I would be sent out to speak God's words... I would be right in the thick of it. Many times God has shown me visions of standing before a stadium of people, praying in the name of His Son and ALL were healed. But I’ve never wanted to be on stage so this was not a very good incentive – He could and would call another. Then I saw, there in my other hand, my ticket to Heaven. 

What would I give to go to Heaven and speak to Jesus? What would I endure to go?

“Anything,” I whispered, “everything I have is Yours.” 

As the thought took firm root in my heart, the tears disappeared. The road may be much harder than I ever imagined, but haven’t we been given the Comforter – the Holy Spirit? The Lord may, one day, be my only friend, but He is enough.

When I went back to bed I used my customary opening prayer to enter into the presence of God then continued, “I come before You as Your humble servant, Your prophet to remind You of what Your word says. Does it not tell us of how Noah, Your prophet, walked with You? It says that You spoke with Moses face to face and his face shown with Your glory. God, I know that you are not a respecter of persons, that what You do for one You will do for another. I ask, Father, that You walk with me, talk with me as You did with them. I ask this the name of Your son and my Savior, Jesus. Amen”
As I prayed these words, I knew what this prayer meant: It would set me farther apart from others than I am now. But I was at peace with that. I know little about being a prophet and I want to do a good job. I need training. James Durham said Jesus wants people called to work for God to visit Him in Heaven for training. There could be no greater honor then being taught by the Lord Himself, no matter the cost.

I moved from prayer into meditation. Mere moments passed before thoughts of my website came to mind. God had given me one thing to fix, now He was showing me another. “Why are these things interfering with my meditation?” I asked.

“Why have you not done them yet?” the quiet voice of the Holy Spirit asked back.

“I was going to activate it when I returned from Heaven,” I thought back. 

“Did God not heal your back,” the spirit answered “did He not send His messenger to speak your name to Craig right now? Are you His prophet or not?”

It felt like I was at a Texas Holdem’ table. God has put all His chips on the table, calling me out. I pictured myself pushing all my chips into the center of the table, “I’m all in, God. I will transform my website as soon as I am able.” Within two days I activated the pages I had created to inbed my author site within my prophet website. On Friday, February 25th, I declared to the world what God has called me to be on the front page of my website: I wait patiently for God to teach me and give me my first assignment. 

Posts About Being a Prophet

In March of 2014 I released Angels Believe in You. This book covers a 13 year period of my life where some interest things occurred:

  • I heard the voice of God
  • received two undeniable physical signs from God
  • saw angels and demons on thirteen separate occasions
  • was healed three times from serious and fully documented medical conditions

Have you ever wondered…

  • What do angels and demons look like?
  • How can angels help us?
  • What proof do we have that angels are among us?
  • What power do we have over demons?
Inside the pages of “Angels Believe in You” you will find some surprising answers.

Make no mistake; Lynn does not claim to be an expert on angels or demons. She is neither the epitome of Christian perfection, nor a Bible scholar. However, what happened to her is both astounding and irrefutable.

It is Lynn’s sincere hope that these extraordinary events that have changed her life will comfort and help you through whatever challenges you face — now or in the future.

Why Doesn't God Speak to Me?

Eager hearts cry out, hoping for a single word to confirm that He hears us. Yet, many times the only sound is silence. Over the years I have heard several reasons why God speaks to some and not to others. One night, as I tossed and turned, I brought each of these reasons before the Lord, stating why each of them did not line up with who I thought He was. 

Words rose from my soul, pleading for Him to reveal why He has remained silent when a single word from Him would mean so much to so many. For the next few hours, God used things I learned about years ago and things I had just discovered to show why He talks to some and why He doesn’t, and in demonstrative ways. 

In His grace, He also showed me how people could hear more from Him. Basic instructions on how to hear more from God and how to be led by Him are included in this book. Thank you for taking time to consider the answers I received and share with you now.

Posts about Heaven and Angelic Encounters

Post about Meditation

Posts Chronologically About my Journey

February 2014 - In God's Time

May 4, 2014 - God and Meditation

May 14, 2014 - The Dance of Worship

July 20, 2014 - Biblical Support for the Journey

August 9, 2014 - What Does My Guardian Angel Look Like?

August 12, 2014 - No Time for the Pain

October 17, 2014 - The Difference Between With and Without

January 4, 2015 - The First Among Many

January 11, 2015 - How Hard do You Push?

March 13, 2015 - A Delay in the Trip to Heaven

March 25, 2015 - Why is it Taking So Long?

September 1, 2015 - Is the Trip Still On?

September 13, 2015 - An Official Title

October 5, 2015 - Angelic Confirmation of the Appointment

October 9, 2015 - Miraculous Confirmation

December 9, 2015 - How He Leads Me

December 24, 2015 - The Last Week of 2015

January 24, 2016 - Correction, Encouragement & Dreams from the Spirit

February 21, 2016 - I'm All In

February 27, 2016 - What is a Tetrad Blood Moon Prophet

June 1, 2016 - First Test as a Prophet (Anointed by an Angel)

September 25, 2016 - Seeing Jesus

September 30, 2016 - Wrestling with God

January 2, 2017 - The Final Test - 313

 June 25, 2017 - Roadmap to Heaven

July 23, 2017 Moments with God: Finding Daddy

August 8, 2017 - Moments with God: Playing Checkers

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