About Me

Led by a series of dreams and encouraged by friends, I began the journey to become an author. I stored my work in a computer file labeled “second job.” Writing began as a passion I could not contain and has become much more than I ever expected.

As I prayed and meditated asking God what He wanted me to do next, He told me to write about what He has done in my life. I said, "But God, it's not done yet."

"Did not all my prophets write down what I told them before it came to pass?" He answered.

I shook my head and went to sleep. The next time I prayed God said, "Write the book."

"I am nobody... just a normal woman who You have done some amazing things to..."

"Write the book," He insisted.

You can find this free book at our website: Agape-CF.org

To me, this book is about how good God is. It is the story of how I messed up time and time again and He was still with me doing miracle after miracle. He did some things that are right out of the book of Acts... often after I screwed things up!

On September 13, 2017 the direction of my life took a whole new turn.

The world saw four blood moons, called a tetrad, happen on Jewish feast days in a single year. In the past, when a tetrad of blood moons fall on significant Jewish holidays big changes take place for Israel and the world. Especially when the coincide with a Shemitah year. 

A Shemitah is the last year of a seven year cycle – the year of rest. Directly following this year, is God’s judgment. Two recent examples of Shemitah years are the Twin Towers attack and the stock market crash of 2008. 

A tradition of the Shemitah says the first ten days are a time for repentance, prayer, and correcting any wrongs to lessen the judgment coming. This year, the is not only a super Shemitah – called a Jubilee, the seventh of a cycle of seven – where the blood moons and eclipses also fall on Jewish holidays: including a partial eclipse on Rosh Hashana, the first day of the Jewish year. 

The quiet voice of the Spirit whispers, “God is giving people time to repent before He pours out his glory.” I shrug this off, surely God can pour out His glory while people are repenting… Secretly I am hoping that I will go to Heaven on the first day of the Jewish new year since there was a partial eclipse.


Still here on Monday morning, I flip to the Sunday service I recorded. I stare transfixed at the program as the pastor says that God told them that something is blocking the Glory from coming, that there is a battle in the spirit realm and they needed to pray. Listening to the announcement about the three day prayer conference, the Holy Spirit whispers, “They are praying about you.” 

“Really? Me?” I ask. Immediately I am determined to participate in this conference. I clear my calendar and notify Tony that I will be busy Thursday, Friday, and Saturday evening when I join watch the live prayer conference. My husband is more than happy to get a chance to get a few things off his to-do list and promises to help watch the kids.

Thursday, September 17The worship before the message and prayer is powerful. The Holy Spirit moves upon me. Much of the prayer centers around asking God to give them words, utterance, so that His will can be done. My sister joins me in prayer (where are two are joined in agreement as in touching any thing, it shall be done - Matthew 18:19): We confess for the actions of our nations and ask God for mercy. We ask Him to pour out His Glory, to show people how much He loves them so that they can turn to Him.

Friday, September 18Again, the praise and worship is anointed with God’s presence setting my skin tingling. This time, the message is about being quiet before the Lord. During this time, I remember that God has spoken to me and shown me many wonders to confirm His will. I know that what He has said is already done for He is omnipresent – He exists everywhere, throughout all time. 

Later, my sister and I pray and rejoice for the fact that He hears our voice and does as we ask in the name of His son. We also submit ourselves to His will, no matter what it may be. I also personally rejoice, remembering the program I watched with the Rabbi where he talked about Ester going before the King. How blessed am I to be called into the presence of the King of Kings! 

Saturday, September 19:  I watch the morning service, having to pause the program for some mom duties. At Eagle Mountain people are going to classes. I have been spending the time outside the prayer meetings studying as well. A show caught my attention earlier this week: the pastors were sharing the prophecies given by ministers they knew. “It will be good to see exactly what has been said and what they are expecting,” I think, clicking on the recorded episode .

In years earlier, I had said to others that I didn’t think that prophets were necessary in this day and age – after all, didn’t we all have equal access to God? When your heart is honestly seeking to do God’s work, He is faithful to correct you. (Proverbs 3:12)

As this programs starts, the pastor begins explaining what a prophet does. I sigh, wishing she would get to the prophecies as I flip open my iPad to play a matching game while I listen. She tells people why God still needs prophets today.

Ephesians 4:11-12 And he gave some, apostles; and some, prophets; and some, evangelists; and some, pastors and teachers; For the perfecting of the saints, for the work of the ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ:

“God still needs evangelists, pastors, and teachers. Prophets are right in the middle of the list of the things God uses, so why wouldn’t He need prophets today,” She says.

Okay God, you have me there. I guess you still do need prophets.” I think to myself.

As the pastor explains what an apostle and an evangelist are I consider the options, “Those don’t sound so bad. I will be anointed for signs and wonders, praying for the sick in Jesus’ name and telling people what He says, so maybe I will be an apostle.” 

Next she asks viewers to turn to Jeremiah 1:5. As she begins to read the words, the power of God, the tingling, wave of power that overcomes me when I meditate, washes over me. I shut my iPad thrusting it from my lap, turning my attention to God. The power is so strong that my eardrums vibrate as if I am ascending and descending from great heights. The words are dim to my ears as the waves come fast and strong and tears stream from my eyes. "Is He calling me to Heaven?"

Some of the words come dimly to my ears:
Jeremiah 1:9 (AMP): 
“Then the Lord stretched out His hand and touched my mouth, and the Lord said to me, behold (hear Me), I have put My words in your mouth. See, I have appointed you this day over the nations and over the kingdoms…”

Lord, let it be so. Let me speak only Your words – put them in my mouth. I don’t want to get anything wrong when I am speaking about You.” After I think these words, the waves of power begin to lessen, until they fade away.

I rewind the program to see where she started reading when God’s power fell upon me.
Jeremiah 1:5 (AMP): “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you [and approved of you as My chosen instrument], And before you were born I consecrated you [to Myself as My own]; I have appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
I join the prayer conference that evening, a few hours later. In the opening worship, I am silent before the Lord, worshiping Him, weeping for the great honor He has bestowed upon me. The pastor enters, announcing something to the effect, “God told me a few hours ago (that would be about the time His presence came upon me) that what we have been called to do has been accomplished. I felt it. It was if a huge weight had been lifted – we have victory!”

I am floored by the announcement… they really were praying about me! Here are these leaders; people who have devoted their entire lives to God, who strive to walk with Him and to lead others to Him, and they have prayed without knowing what they are praying for – a beautiful demonstration of faith. It is very odd, very… difficult… to have God tell me things, show me things, that He has not shown them – such as why they were praying; it is a bit overwhelming.

It took a couple of days for my heart to rejoice in this new revelation. All I have ever wanted in my life was to be used by God in some small way. This… this is so much more responsibility than I expected. But it is also so much of an honor that it is humbling beyond words to describe. 

Now I wait expectantly: Like the disciples who waited for the power of the Holy Spirit which came of the day of Pentecost, I wait for God to do as He has promised - as He pours out His glory. The whole world will be shaken as they see, for the first time in thousands of years, the true power of God as He reveals how much He loves us.

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Believers' Boot Camp series

Believers' Boot Camp - Volume One
Believers' Boot Camp: Volume Two
Roadmap to Heaven
Destroying Curses
in the Courts of Heaven


Many people think of boot camp as a place you train for combat. Any veteran will tell you that basic training is about three things:
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Volume 1: Why Doesn't God Speak to Me?

Eager hearts cry out, hoping for a single word to confirm that He hears us. Yet, many times the only sound is silence. Over the years I have heard several reasons why God speaks to some and not to others. One night, as I tossed and turned, I brought each of these reasons before the Lord, stating why each of them did not line up with who I thought He was. 

Words rose from my soul, pleading for Him to reveal why He has remained silent when a single word from Him would mean so much to so many. For the next few hours, God used things I learned about years ago and things I had just discovered to show why He talks to some and why He doesn’t, and in demonstrative ways. 

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4 comments:

  1. Compelled by your testimony and so full of my own questions now that I see you describe things I have felt in certain points of your writing ... I'm astonished and am more actively seeking God Jesus and the Holy spirit because of you God's vessel ... I thank you for your duty and the trinity for moving through you..

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    1. It is my distinct pleasure to be used by God as He sees fit. Thank you for taking time to let me know that I am not on this path alone.

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  2. Such an amazing book. Its a must read by all. Thank you for availing your self.

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