Friday, January 8, 2016

The Last Week of 2015 - December 24, 2015

December 24, 2015

(To Heaven and Back Again series)

There aren’t many details in the Bible concerning the internal struggle of the chosen prophets of God. Elijah asked God to take his life (1 Kings 19:4) and Jonah ran from God, but what was it like for Moses, Jeremiah, or even John the Baptist as they waited for their first assignment? Not much is said beyond their initial “who me?” protest. Many church leaders believe that those in leadership need to appear strong and confident before their congregation. By now, you know I have been transparent in who I am – strengths and weaknesses.

The presence of God is always, I mean ALWAYS with me. My stomach always seems tense. Turning my thoughts toward Him produces tingling in my arms, sometimes spreading to my whole body. I am not quite sure what God wants me to do with it… all I can do is wait and see.

The Hardy family continued their Christmas tradition. We stayed up until midnight on the 24th and
then opened our presents at the beginning of Christmas day. I crawled into bed about 1 am and God seemed to be calling me to meditate – it wasn’t strong, but it was there.

The gentle waves began cascading through me. I was excited, overjoyed. “Yeah! He is calling me to Heaven! A perfect day to show how much God loves the world.” My heart was so enthusiastic, almost in tears at the thought of spending Christmas with Him. As soon as I became overjoyed at the possibility of going to Heaven, strong, determined waves begin falling, faster and faster. I pulled away… was this God – it was so strong?

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

How He Leads Me - December 9, 2015

December 9, 2015

(To Heaven and Back Again series)

When you accept Christ as Lord and Savior, the Bible tells us that we are “born again.” Our spirit is joined and sealed with the Holy Spirit inside; we are a new being. This is why we are sons of God, we have His Spirit within us. If we feed our minds and spirit by reading the word of God and ask Him to help us, we begin to slowly evolve. “I will put my laws in their minds and write it on their hearts” (Jeremiah 31:33) It is our choice weather we let this metamorphosis occur.

Since my calling, I have noticed these changes are happening quite rapidly. Each day I plan out what I will do, but often the Holy Spirit guides me into something else. This evolution is even effecting my entertainment: shows I once loved, now seem... unimportant or even distasteful. On more than one occasion I have also found myself unable to quote certain Bible verses to support my beliefs – I will be planning out what to say. I open my mouth and nothing comes out. Other verses spring to mind with an alternate argument: I use those instead.