Friday, December 11, 2015

Miraculous Confirmation - October 9, 2015

I press the button, selecting the recorded church service from the DVR. The worship songs are lively with strong beat. As I worship God, I begin some chorus-line kicks and reaching movement, turning worship into an aerobic workout.

The quiet voice of the Holy Spirit, sounding much like my own, whispers, “Touch the ground.”

Great idea,” I think back, “I should have stretched before I began all this.

All my life, I had only been able to reach just past my knees when stretching. An x-ray from a chiropractor had shown the reason: two of the vertebra in the middle of my back were fused together. My twin sister suffers from the same condition.

As I lean forward, my fingertips keep going further and further down until they are less than an inch from the ground. “Praise God!” I shout, “I’m healed! My back is healed!”

During that week of struggling with the new title God had given me, I had prayed, “Lord God, from all I have read about your prophets, they didn’t hobble about on the missions you sent them out on; some of them even outran chariots! Since You have called me as your prophet, I ask that You heal my back… I know all things are easy for You (according to the Bible): I know you have removed metal plates from people bodies and put bone in their place, so I thank you for taking care of my fused vertebra while You are at it.”

In college I had ruptured a disc in the middle of my back, since then two more have gone. With eight major medical conditions in eight years, the muscles were so weak that everything I did seemed to hurt it.

After my prayer, I fully expected to be healed, I just thought it would be after I returned from Heaven. Over the next month, I rejoiced every time I got into the car or carried in groceries. My back isn’t only healed, it’s strong! This miracle touched me more than any of the others. The fused vertebra wasn’t something that had to be healed, I functioned fine with it. But I wanted it to be fixed – it was a want, not a necessity.

Praise God, I’m His prophet!

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Believer’s Boot Camp series is a collection of books which teach us how to hear more clearly from God with the goal to ready ourselves for a face-to-face meeting with our Lord, Jesus. The series reveals the “weapons and tools” God has given us and how to use them, so we can bring God’s kingdom to Earth. Each book in the series focuses on a single topic to clearly define one tool or weapon from our Heavenly Father. 

The series uses the Word of God to reveal all that He has given us through Jesus. The Bible is our instruction manual and the Holy Spirit is our guide to understanding it.

Volume 1: Why Doesn't God Speak to Me?

Eager hearts cry out, hoping for a single word to confirm that He hears us. Yet, many times the only sound is silence. Over the years I have heard several reasons why God speaks to some and not to others. One night, as I tossed and turned, I brought each of these reasons before the Lord, stating why each of them did not line up with who I thought He was. 

Words rose from my soul, pleading for Him to reveal why He has remained silent when a single word from Him would mean so much to so many. For the next few hours, God used things I learned about years ago and things I had just discovered to show why He talks to some and why He doesn’t, and in demonstrative ways. 

In His grace, He also showed me how people could hear more from Him. Basic instructions on how to hear more from God and how to be led by Him are included in this book. Thank you for taking time to consider the answers I received and share with you now.

Keys to Authority for Every Believer

There is untapped power that is easy for every Christian to access in the form of authority. The keys to this authority will unlock weapons we can use to free ourselves from the attacks of the enemy. We must be intimately aware of the bounds and limitations of our weapon if they are to be used effectively. 

Find out about your authority:
  • Why you need it.
  • Where it comes from.
  • What you can do with it.
  • How to get more.

Monday, October 26, 2015

Angelic Confirmation of the Appointment - October 5th, 2015


Around noon my cell phone rings. “Craig Johnson,” I think, “it must be important if he is calling on a Monday after returning from a vacation.”

This is the same Craig from Angels Believe in You who showed up at my office when I asked God for help with my accounting. 

“Hi, Craig, how was your trip?” I ask.

“Tiring: 1,400 miles in four days was fun but exhausting!” He tells me, “Something really weird happened a few nights ago. In the middle of the night I woke thinking I heard my son awake in the next room of our motor home. All of the sudden, there was a bright light in the bathroom, just down the hall from where I was. It was so bright, so white, it really frightened me. Then a voice came out of the light. It said, ‘Lynn.’ I thought perhaps it was looking for you so I said, ‘She’s not here right now.’ After that it went away. Lynn, what the heck was that?”

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

The Path is Open – September 26, 2015

Pastor George at speaks about this being the final night of the
blood moon triad: the final blood moon will be at its peak around 9:45. The last day of the triad happens to fall on the Jewish day of Sukkot. They celebrate this day for many reasons including the fact that it was on this day that the glory of God filled the first temple.

“Hmmm… sounds like a good day to possibly go to Heaven,” I think to myself.

At 9:20 I crawl into bed, notifying my husband that I will be praying and meditating and won’t be able to talk to him. As I relax, the presence of God is mild, not the pull He gives when it is time to meditate. A thought comes, “It was 9:45 Texas time; that is 8:45 your time.” I sigh. “Well, you could have told me about that earlier,” I tell the Lord. It is pretty obvious that God isn’t calling me to Heaven tonight. I thank Him for giving me rest and quickly dose off.

“The path is open,” the words come clearly into my dream followed by a loud shout or a banging noise that wakes me up out of a dead sleep. “What? It is open?” I ask, sitting up in bed.

Perhaps it is the path to Heaven? I relax, stilling my body and worshiping God. Sleep clouds my brain. Past experience has shown me that even if I am dog tired, when God calls me to meditated, the Holy Spirit helps me do it. This is not such a time. I roll over and go back to sleep.

With much to do, I am up early the next morning. The interrupted sleep wears on me so I take a brief nap. Later that night when I retire, His presence is strong.

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Revelation of His Calling - September 20th

September 20, 2015

(To Heaven and Back Again series)


I wake with a head full of questions as our family gets ready for church. I would love nothing more than to stay home and dive into the new direction God has given me, but my family comes first and they need church. Once again we have a guest speaker. Once again, I find some good information mixed with some bad.



Tony has good discernment and often knows when something is “off.” After the service he says, “I was shocked when the preacher said that he loved money.”



“He said that?” I ask. “When did that happen? What else did he say about the topic?”


Tony shrugs, “It was toward the end. He said he loved money but loved God more.” 

My brow furrows with irritation. “We aren’t supposed to ‘love’ money: the Bible says it is the root of all evil. We love God who meets all our needs.”

Tony gives me a look like “Well, duh, even I know that.”  We continue discussing the message and I fill in the missing information the pastor didn’t give as we drive to lunch.

With a kiss on my hubby’s cheek I let him and the kids know that I am retiring downstairs to do “God stuff.” Determined to investigate what exactly a prophet is, I switch on the program by Terri and George. It is an hour and a half long and I had only gotten through the first five to ten minutes so I figure I can start with there.

Several prophets are mentioned in the program: Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Joseph, Moses, John the Baptist. Through much research, I discover a few things about prophets:
  • They give and record messages from God
  • Signs and wonders verify that they have been sent by God
  • They explain prophecies and the words of God
  • They are usually sent to speak to heads of nations when a nation needs correction or advice from God

One very important fact jumps out at me. We are supposed to judge people who claim to be prophets:



 “If a prophet arises among you, or a dreamer of dreams, and gives you a sign or a wonder, and the sign or the wonder which he spoke (foretold) to you comes to pass, and if he says, ‘Let us follow after other gods (whom you have not known) and let us serve and worship them,’ you shall not listen to the words of that prophet or that dreamer of dreams; for the Lord your God is testing you to know whether you love the Lord your God with all your heart and mind and all your soul [your entire being]..." Deuteronomy 13:1-3 (AMP)
This is very important. From reading the book of Revelation in the Bible I know that the antichrist will appear with signs, wonders, and miracles. He will speak against God and those in Heaven and many will follow him (2 Thessalonians 2:1-10 and Revelations 13:11-13).
Old Testament prophets were also judged by the people for accuracy:
Deuteronomy 18:18-22 (AMP)
I will raise up a prophet from among their countrymen like you, and I will put My words in his mouth, and he shall speak to them all that I command him. It shall come about that whoever will not listen to My words which he shall speak in My name, I Myself will require it of him [and there will be consequences]. But the prophet who presumes to speak a word in My name which I have not commanded him to speak, or which he speaks in the name of other gods—that prophet shall die.’ If you say in your heart, ‘How will we know and recognize the word which the Lord has not spoken?’ When a prophet speaks in the name of the Lord and the thing does not happen or come true, that is the thing which the Lord has not spoken. The prophet has spoken it presumptuously; you shall not be afraid of him.

Wow, this prophet thing is serious! If you say “God said this” and it doesn’t happen, then you are done!

I turn to the New Testament in the Bible to compare the prophets there with the ones in the Old Testament.
“To him give all the prophets witness, that through His name whosoever believeth on Him shall receive remission of sins.”Acts 10:43 (KJV)
My mind is completely blown as I realize that prophets are called His witnesses. In Angels Believe in You (published in 2014) this is what happened to me when God told me about going to Heaven:
Every time I prayed, it felt as though I should read Jesse’s book. Yet my thoughts were conflicted: “I don’t want to be influenced by what someone else reports, Lord. I want to see Heaven for myself.” 
Over the years I’ve noticed that if God wants you to do something, He doesn’t give up until the opportunity has passed. When the thought persisted for a couple of weeks, I finally realized that God had a purpose in having me read that book. I searched for “Close Encounters of a God Kind." 
I got a little choked up, tears in my eyes threatened to overflow when Jesse described Jesus. It always amazes me when people meet God and Jesus that they see fit to argue with Him in person. I was getting a grip on myself when I read the part where Jesus tells Jesse, “Everyone looks for the signs when they ought to look for My witness.” 
A ball of emotion welled up in my chest and tears ran down my cheeks. The Holy Spirit whispered, “That’s you.”
Jesus told Jesse to look for His witness as a sign of His return. John the Baptist is called the witness of His coming. The quite, yet undeniable voice of His Spirit whispers, "I sent a witness for My Son's first coming, could I not send a witness to His second?" 

All this time, I thought my walk with God was a bit extraordinary, but nothing thousands of other people hadn’t experienced. Until this moment, I had no idea how uniquely blessed I have been. I try to get a hold of my emotions so that I don’t bust into tears when I speak about the honor of being the mouthpiece of God as He speaks through me to the nations.

If you think about it, though, it makes perfect sense. God sent a prophet, who many called a witness, to announce the coming of His son, Jesus – John the Baptist. What Jesus was trying to tell Jesse was that before He came back, He would do the same thing: He was sending a witness to announce that His coming is at hand.

This is so much bigger than I ever imagined. For weeks I was determined not to post this on my blog, only in this book. How could I post it? I will sound like a total nut-bag until God pours out His glory through me to confirm that all this is true. Prophets of God all did signs, wonders, and miracles to back up what they were saying. Now I know why. Eventually, I did post about being His prophet on the blog… but not this part.

Shaking my head, I shut down the computer and put away my books. “I just need a moment,” I tell God. “I’m not saying no, but I just need a moment to process this… not only your prophet, but like John the Baptist for goodness sakes!” For the rest of the day I take a step back, watching secular TV and enjoying my husband.

** More than a year later, I finally gave in to the nagging of the Holy Spirit and posted this on my blog... I have placed it close to the date of when it occurred. Those who are ready to hear will find it, I am sure.

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Many people think of boot camp as a place you train for combat. Any veteran will tell you that basic training is about three things:
  • Knowing what weapons are available 
  • Learning how to use those weapons 
  • Receiving orders and following them 
Believer’s Boot Camp series is a collection of books which teach us how to hear more clearly from God with the goal to ready ourselves for a face-to-face meeting with our Lord, Jesus. The series reveals the “weapons and tools” God has given us and how to use them, so we can bring God’s kingdom to Earth. Each book in the series focuses on a single topic to clearly define one tool or weapon from our Heavenly Father. 

The series uses the Word of God to reveal all that He has given us through Jesus. The Bible is our instruction manual and the Holy Spirit is our guide to understanding it.

Volume 1: Why Doesn't God Speak to Me?

Eager hearts cry out, hoping for a single word to confirm that He hears us. Yet, many times the only sound is silence. Over the years I have heard several reasons why God speaks to some and not to others. One night, as I tossed and turned, I brought each of these reasons before the Lord, stating why each of them did not line up with who I thought He was. 

Words rose from my soul, pleading for Him to reveal why He has remained silent when a single word from Him would mean so much to so many. For the next few hours, God used things I learned about years ago and things I had just discovered to show why He talks to some and why He doesn’t, and in demonstrative ways. 

In His grace, He also showed me how people could hear more from Him. Basic instructions on how to hear more from God and how to be led by Him are included in this book. Thank you for taking time to consider the answers I received and share with you now.

Keys to Authority for Every Believer

There is untapped power that is easy for every Christian to access in the form of authority. The keys to this authority will unlock weapons we can use to free ourselves from the attacks of the enemy. We must be intimately aware of the bounds and limitations of our weapon if they are to be used effectively. 

Find out about your authority:
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  • What you can do with it.
  • How to get more.



Tuesday, September 22, 2015

An Official Title - September 13, 2015

A rabbi elaborates on the four blood moons, called a tetrad, and why they are significant this year. Having learned the basics from another program, I quickly absorb the additional information.

In the past, when a tetrad of blood moons fall on significant Jewish holidays big changes take place for Israel and the world. Especially when the coincide with a Shemitah year. 

A Shemitah is the last year of a seven year cycle – the year of rest. Directly following this year, is God’s judgment. Two recent examples of Shemitah years are the Twin Towers attack and the stock market crash of 2008. 

A tradition of the Shemitah says the first ten days are a time for repentance, prayer, and correcting any wrongs to lessen the judgment coming. This year, the is not only a super Shemitah – called a Jubilee, the seventh of a cycle of seven – where the blood moons and eclipses also fall on Jewish holidays: including a partial eclipse on Rosh Hashana, the first day of the Jewish year. 

The quiet voice of the Spirit whispers, “God is giving people time to repent before He pours out his glory.” I shrug this off, surely God can pour out His glory while people are repenting… Secretly I am hoping that I will go to Heaven on the first day of the Jewish new year since there was a partial eclipse.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

More Coincidences? - April 1, 2015

April 1, 2015

My husband Tony was tossing and turning, so I knew he was still awake. "Hey, Honey, can I tell you what God just pointed out to me when I was talking to him?" I ask.

"Sure," he sighs, surely thinking that maybe this God stuff will lull him into sleep.

Jeshua - The Missing Years
"Akiana's painting, the one where I recognized the child that I bowed to and called "Lord:" the one that convinced me that God wants me to visit Jesus in Heaven through meditation. The caption in her book, Akiana: Her Life, Her Art, Her Poetry, says 'Jeshua - The Missing Years.' It talks about how Jesus at the age of fourteen visited his Father in Heaven during one of His meditations."

I sum it all up for my husband, "This is the fourteenth year since God spoke to me in an audible voice. Fourteen years since I began walking with the Holy Spirit."

"People can connect all the dots when they really want something to be true. The truth is you still haven't gone to Heaven."

"Think of this as a theory then. There is absolutely no evidence of a "big bang," yet you believe in the theory because scientists point to things that make it seem like a plausible answer. Isn't there enough supporting evidence about going to Heaven to convince you, yet?"

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Why is it Taking So Long? - March 25, 2015

March 25, 2015



As I got comfortable for the night, my thoughts speaking to the Lord aren't exactly respectful: “What's up with this? All day today your presence has been surrounding me and now that I'm here, ready to meditate, You don't even call me? I thought we were practicing for Heaven?”

Silence surrounds me. The Big Guy offers no guidance.

“What's different from right now and earlier today?” I ask myself. “Well, I was worshiping and His presence surrounded me. But right now I don't FEEL like worshiping. I am so tired of waiting! It's been over a year...”

In a flash of insight, a supernatural gift from the Holy Spirit, I see myself, my actions, in a whole new light: It is like a kid who knows that you have bought them an Xbox for Christmas, yet throws a tantrum when you walk by the video game aisle in the store because they want the game NOW!

My heart crumbles and my attitude changes. “Lord, I am so sorry. This is your gift, I will try to be more patient. You know, I always thought that the reason You were so often frustrated with your disciples was because they had not yet been given the Holy Spirit; of course, they were a little slow to comprehend things. But I have been actively working on listening to the Spirit for fourteen years and still I throw a tantrum, acting like a spoiled child.” The presence of God tingles across my body, letting me know I’m on the right path.

Thinking about this a bit more, I add, “I just don't understand what You are waiting for. I know that visit Heaven will be the beginning that will help so many!”

Tears cascade down my cheeks. Into my mind flashes the dream I had many years ago: in part of it I saw tent cities across the nation as thousands upon thousands were homeless. This is connected to the trip to Heaven? This is all tied together? Unable to deal with the information I’ve just been given, I whisper, “Tony, are you sleeping?”

“Huh?” He rolls over. “What’s wrong?”

“I’ve been talking to God. I really don’t like what I think I’ve heard…” Tears are coming faster now, a steady stream, “Can I talk to you about it?”

My husband nods. In short, quick terms I explain what I understand about events being connected to His greater plan. “So let me get this straight…you’re upset about something that might happen when the first thing, going to Heaven, hasn’t even happened yet?”

“That’s just it, Honey. I really believe God is answering my questions about why it’s taking so long to go to Heaven. Do you think I should still go even if it means that there will be a domino effect leading to another Great Depression?”

Tony applies logic to my emotional response, “You said that you are just trying to do what God wants, right?” I nod. “And it is Jesus who is bringing you to Heaven?”

“Yes,” I reply, knowing I can’t get there without Him.

My husband concludes, “Then what happens is on Him, not you. He’s the one in charge, not you. If it is tied to a world-wide event, then it is His will and His choice.”

Giving him a hug, I say, “Thank you, Honey. That really helps.”

Tony rolls over, going back to sleep. The fierce tingling that I’ve taken to mean He is calling me to practice descends. Laying on my back, I attempt to relax into meditation. Thanking the Lord for granting me wisdom and worshiping Him, power flows from my head to my shoulders.

Again, the scene of tent cities flashes through my mind. Tears spill over my cheeks as I think once again about the kids who will be without a warm bed. “Lord, the night before You went to the cross, You prayed so fiercely trying to avoid it that You sweat blood. Give me this night to morn for what is coming: for those who will suffer.”

The tears ease and I begin to hear Him speak once again, “This is why I helped you create Agape (uh-ga pei) Assistance Association. It is to provide for people during this time.” (The story about Agape Assistance Association can be found in Angels Believe in You.)

This helps me get more control over my emotions. “So You are providing for Your people like You did with Joseph in Egypt.” The basic details flow through my mind:

God sent Joseph two dreams in which he saw, in essence, his brothers bowing down before him (represented by sheaves of wheat). Joseph’s brothers already resented him because their father favored him, so when Joseph told them about these dreams, they sold him as a slave.

For the next fifteen years Joseph went through many trials, but eventually he came to the attention of Pharaoh. Joseph became the second in command of all of Egypt. God guided him to store food during seven years of abundance for the seven years of famine that would follow. (Find the full story of Joseph here)

 “You sent him dreams and You spoke to me when you sent me a vision. Why didn’t you tell him about the famine when you sent the dreams?” I ask.

The answer comes in a soft thought, “He was still a teenager – still a child. Today you decided to stop being a child. Joseph found out about the famine when he needed to do something: save the surplus food for the famine.”

It’s hard to miss the similarities to my journey:

1.    2001 – God speaks, saying, “I bless you…Miraculously…Financially,”  and gives me a vision
2.    I’ve been struggling for 14 years trying to figure out when God’s promise will come to pass
3.    2009 – God helps me create Agape Assistance Association to give kids a warm bed
4.    2014 – God tells me that He wants me to visit Jesus in Heaven through meditation.
5.    2015 – God tells me that a Great Depression will fall upon America and Europe around the time I am visiting Heaven.

“Lord, when did you know your journey would lead to the cross?” I ask. The answer comes, “When I was no longer a child. This is why my mother needed to prod me to begin my ministry at the wedding (His first miracle where He turned water into wine). I knew where it would lead and wanted to wait as long as possible.”

“Man, I totally understand that,” I think, “Suddenly I’m in no hurry to get to Heaven. Not that I don’t look forward to seeing you, but it means the time is approaching where so many will lose everything! I will be ready whenever you call, but there’s no hurry. I now have all the patience in the world.

“I’m glad you warned me about what is to come, but I can’t write about this in my blog” I tell Him, “People will think I’ve got delusions of grandeur or that I’m just one of those crazy end-of-the-world doomsayers.”

“Some will read it and believe. For some it will be too late, but for others this will sound an alarm and they will prepare: cancelling their cable, their cell phones, saving every penny to pay off all their bills or make a nest egg. When it hits, they will not be on the streets.”

I sigh, knowing that if it will help one family I have to write it. They thought Noah was crazy for building the ark…I suppose I will be in good company.

The next day, I am still struggling. It’s hard to find joy in anything when you know that so much suffering is not far off. A good friend of mine. She has enthusiastically supported me through this crazy journey.
“God uses everything for the good of His people,” she tells me.

As soon as I hear those words things click into place. God isn’t causing the Great Depression, neither is my trip to Heaven. We are in a period of grace – God poured out his wrath on Jesus and isn't punishing us! The world has grown greedy. People are abusing their power. The collapse of the economy is going to happen anyways. God knows what is going to happen and He is setting up something to help His people!
First, God will show his grace and mercy by bringing people to Heaven to see the glory Christ has for us. 
They will be sent out across the world to bring hope to those in need. Then, when the economy collapses, Agape Assistance will be there so that I can use His financial blessing to help provide for people.

This is the God I know. He is filled with kindness and compassion. He is our provider. 

Why Doesn't God Speak to Me?

Eager hearts cry out, hoping for a single word to confirm that He hears us. Yet, many times the only sound is silence. Over the years I have heard several reasons why God speaks to some and not to others. One night, as I tossed and turned, I brought each of these reasons before the Lord, stating why each of them did not line up with who I thought He was. 

Words rose from my soul, pleading for Him to reveal why He has remained silent when a single word from Him would mean so much to so many. For the next few hours, God used things I learned about years ago and things I had just discovered to show why He talks to some and why He doesn’t, and in demonstrative ways. 

In His grace, He also showed me how people could hear more from Him. Basic instructions on how to hear more from God and how to be led by Him are included in this book. Thank you for taking time to consider the answers I received and share with you now.

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Thursday, April 2, 2015

A Delay in the Trip to Heaven - March 13, 2015

March 13, 2015

Kelly Lowe is the daughter of a friend of mine. When I heard how the justice system had failed her, I was appalled. This is the year 2015, not 1950. Weren't men more enlightened? Didn't women have equal rights? How could our American justice system tell the victim of a rape that there was no justice for her because she left her two kids and husband at home while she went out drinking with her sister?

There had to be something I could do. In February 2015, I contacted Kelly to see if she would be willing to let me start a Facebook rally to draw attention to this situation. We hoped that "Hold Him Accountable" would get the attention of the national news media.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Afghanistan Veteran Fights to Bring her Rapists to Trial

Woman Warrior – an Afghanistan Veteran – Fights for Justice for ALL Women in the USA

By Lynn Hardy


Mark Jernigan, the only DA in Roscommon County, Michigan, told Kelly Lowe, "No jury will convict this man of rape when you (Kelly) left your husband and two boys at home to go out drinking with your sister."

Kelly asked, "Are you saying that if a married woman goes out and gets drunk without her husband that she deserves to be raped?"

The prosecuting attorney chuckled and said nothing.
Despite the compelling evidence, Kelly is refused a trial:
  • Rape kit verifies assault
  • Blood on clothes because Kelly punched him in the nose
  •  Eye witnesses who came running when they heard Kelly yell and saw the rapist running from the room with a bloody nose
  • The rapist confesses as the police record the conversation
  • The lieutenant of the reporting officer asks the DA to prosecute

Thursday, March 5, 2015

What Heaven is Like (A Map) - December 27, 2014

December 27, 2014


My tingling hands rest on my stomach, notifying me that the Holy Spirit is with me. Of course, He is always with us, perhaps “active” is more accurate. Instead of relaxing into meditation, I start a conversation, “I know I will be going there soon, but it sure would be nice to find out what Heaven is like now. It would be helpful to kind of have a map of the place before I get there.”

Images and information come quickly into my mind:

All light comes from God – it is part of Him that permeates every inch of Heaven. It isn’t only light, it’s feeling: comfort, joy, peace, hope. It is as much a physical thing as water in the ocean. The closer you come to God, the more “presence” you feel. It is better than any drug you’ve ever taken.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Questions for Christ - January 18, 2015

My husband, Tony, drives us toward Taco Time -- one of our favorite places to grab a cheap lunch. I rub my eyes sleepily. "Another long night meditating?" he asks.

"I wish. Since it's Sunday, mind if we talk about God for a bit?" I reply hesitantly. Although Tony has come a long way in his walk with God, I know that at times he is frustrated by my focus on Him, or perhaps by His lack of direct communication at times. (See post on June 7, 2014: Click HERE)

"Sure, what's going on?" Tony says.

"A new acquaintance messaged me last week. Her daughter, Delaney, is in the hospital. Kori asked me to pray for her. Of course I said a quick prayer on the spot, but last night I brought Delaney before the Lord as I was entering meditation." I sigh. "What I saw while I was praying, well, I won't say for absolute sure that it was God – after all, I made up my own fantasy world for my first series of books...but I will say that I hope it is what God intends."

Tony waits patiently for me to continue. Gathering my thoughts, I decide to start at the beginning. "When God first spoke to me, and healed me miraculously of my deviated septum and allergies, my first thought was: Wouldn't it be great if God was telling me that whoever I prayed for would be healed, just like it was with the disciples of Jesus? But I was told that was impossible, that God doesn't work that way. Then when I went to those large gatherings of Christians, I saw for myself: there were always some that didn't receive their healing - many were very upset about it. 

"This last year God has made it very clear that I am going to Heaven – I even met Richard, the angel that watches over me 24/7. (See that story, click HERE) I firmly believe I will get to speak to Jesus, who was the Christ in person, sooner rather than later. God has given me advance notice and I have come up with some pretty intense questions for the Lord.
 
“The Bible says: 
  • And these signs will accompany those who believe...They shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover. (Mark 16:18)


"Lord, after you appeared to the disciples in all your glory and they knew you were God, not once did they say to someone: Sorry, God can't/won’t heal you. Or if you believe in Jesus as the Son of God, you will be healed. It was always, 'Will you be healed?' and then BAM! They were healed right then and there!

Thursday, February 19, 2015

How Hard do You Need to Push? - January 11, 2015

Church the next morning is difficult – I am too tired to even enjoy the worship. Despite the lack of energy, my hands and forearms still tingle. After Sunday lunch with the family I take a brief nap. By that evening I’m ready to try again.

This time I am determined. The call to action is still tingling across my arms. After worshiping, I focus with laser-like precision; I want to join my Lord in Heaven. Nothing else is important: not my husband beside me, not taking a breath…only one thing exists, my desire to be in Heaven with Him.

The pushing surge of energy begins after a short period of worship. It increases quickly, building in intensity. I completely ignore what it seems like my body is doing, knowing that it is only my inner being moving. Soon it seems like my body is inches off the bed with each renewed thought about going to where my Lord is.

As the next surge of energy pushes outward, the muscles around my throat constrict. The surging outward push reminds me of throwing up but the muscles in my neck are so tense that I couldn’t take a breath if anything was on its way up, it would be stuck there.

I push away the feeling of wrongness. The next surge is equally disturbing as the sensation lasts longer and is intensified. I open my eyes. This cannot be God’s way to Heaven!


God is powerful, able to heal our bodies. I’m pretty sure that He can do this without depriving us of breath.
Unwilling to give up, I decide to meditate only without forcing the issue. Sleep comes before I get anywhere. Waking the next morning with tingling hands, I spend time thinking and praying about what happened the night before.

I thought God was calling me to Heaven, so I tried to get there. I strove toward it with all my might. What was the last thing God said to me: “Keep practicing until it’s time.”

When I got a glimpse of Heaven, what was I doing? I looked it up in my journal. There was no pushing, just the surge of power. Perhaps I was trying to have an out of body experience on my own. Maybe it would have been harmful, even fatal. I did ask the Holy Spirit to correct me strongly and loudly so I wouldn’t go astray…It seems I shouldn’t be pushing toward anything – even the Lord. It is in His time, not when I think it should be.

“Maybe I don’t have to include this bit…maybe I should just take all the pushing stuff out of the posts?”

Later, I speak with my mom about it. “It needs to be in the book in case someone else starts down the wrong path,” she tells me.

I sigh, “Man! I really thought I wouldn’t have as many mistakes in this part of my journey… it was embarrassing enough last time!”

I guess I know why God introduced me to my guardian angel, Richard. At this point, without that confirmation, I would seriously be considering whether going to Heaven was what God wanted at all. As it is, now I feel like I am back to square one, August 9 – the day I met the huge, powerful, straight from His throne, angel God sent to protect me. (Read that story: Click Here) Nothing like going in the wrong direction for four months!

If you want to go to Heaven and speak to Jesus, I hope you will benefit from what I have learned this day. It isn’t up to us. We can’t rush it. Ask Jesus for an audience, then diligently seek Him, worship, and wait.