Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Seeing Jesus - September 2016


As I took my seat, the first song our church played focused on the Holy Spirit with an upbeat tempo. As I raised my hands to worship the Lord, I closed my eyes. With no effort on my part, I saw myself, as if standing behind and to the left of my physical body. My body shrank in a blink of an eye and I became child-sized as an indistinct, child-sized figure came forward and took both my hands in His. We began hopping around in a circle the way children do when the dance and play.
Grinning like a kid, I sent a silent thought of ‘thank you’ to the Holy Spirit. I had been asking Him to make himself more real to me so I could see Him as the third person of the Trinity instead of an “it.” This incredible introduction seemed like a wonderful experience and I was grateful for the awesome day at church.
Jesus by Akiane
The next song, one of my favorites, was a waltz-like tune that says, “You’re my one desire, you’re my one thirst, more than anything, I seek You first…” As I raised my hands and closed my eyes I saw myself dancing with the Lord whose features were indistinct, but I knew instantly who it was, nonetheless. My right hand dropped slightly while my left came down in front of my stomach, mimicking the position in the vision. It seemed natural for my feet to follow the path the Lord led me on as we waltzed together.
Towards the end of the song a thought that wasn’t mine enters my mind, “This is our song.”
Mulling over those words, I finally reply, “Lord, this song is about how much I need You. Why is it our song?”

Saturday, October 1, 2016

Wrestling with God - September, 2016

Seeing Jesus wasn’t as… easy… as I thought it would be. It took me three days to be able to speak about it without sobbing. (Click Here for that story) Even so, the emotion of the encounter kept my eyes overflowing as I recounted the event to Mom. You would think this personal appearance and emotional connection would have placated my desire to learn from Him in Heaven, but it had quite the opposite effect.

Throughout the week I kept thinking of all the people who worshiped Him just the way I did, yet, did He appear to them? Mom, sisters, friends… All wanted to encounter Him. Why didn’t He appear to more people?

My husband slept quietly beside me. Exhaustion tugged at me, yet I couldn’t sleep. “Lord, for years Tony has asked for a single word from you – it would mean so much to him, yet You remain silent.” Emotion begins to swell from somewhere deep inside. My thought become an anguished cry, “Why do you remain silent when a single word from you would mean so much to so many! You have given me so much and others so little…WHY?”

I listed each of the answers that people had given me when I had asked why God speaks to some and not to others:

Ø  It would eliminate the need for faith.
Ø  He can’t because of our sin.
Ø  He speaks when it is necessary.
Ø  It would violate our free will.

As I mentioned each one I gave Bible stories and verses that showed why none of these applied to what I knew of Him from His word. Consumed with anguish for all those who seek Him, I declared, “I cannot work for a God I do not know. You must tell me why a good and kind God doesn’t talk to creation or I cannot go on working for you!”

Monday, July 11, 2016

Anointed by an Angel (First Test as a Prophet) - June 1, 2016

June 1, 2016


Preparing to move to a new home really impacted my life: it was several days before I could finally join an online church for their Sunday service - thank God for a DVR which allows me to catch up when life gets in the way. Pastor George started by announcing, “After service last Sunday, I felt a little let down.... It didn't seem like we had received the promised visitation. Had we not done what was necessary? Did we fall short in some way?” 

I nodded my head, I had felt same way.  Last Sunday George talked a lot about appearances of the Lord but nothing seemed to manifest – no one stepped up to say that they saw anything unusual and the presence of the Holy Spirit wasn’t any more than normal.

On the TV George continued, “That afternoon I received a text from the children's church leader: We had a visitation from the Lord!”

The Holy Spirit filled the room as he explained, “Usually we coordinate our services, but this week I hadn't said anything to her about the word I had received from God about having a visitation from Jesus at the service!” Pastor George described the miraculous visitation that had occurred in children's part of the church:

The teacher reported that the presence of God was so strong that she could barely stand. 
More than 80 children (kindergarten through 4th grade) sat perfectly still with no squirming or fidgeting for more than two hours as the Holy Spirit came in like a flood to fill the room.  
The teen assistant felt compelled to take each child, one by one, look them in the eyes and prophesy over each one: the other children waited patiently for their turn.
If you know kids this age, you know what a miracle this is. Many kids came to the stage of the main church to repeat the testimony they had given the previous Sunday. I watched and listened, every hair on my body standing on end as the presence of the Lord filled the room:

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Correction, Encouragement & Dreams from the Spirit - January 24, 2016

The Holy Spirit urged me to read more about trips to Heaven as "research." I had several books about this topic vying for my attention. By Tuesday, I had completed the first book. I found the message to be good for renewing my mind to what being a Christian is all about. However, there was one point that I didn’t fully, whole-heartedly, believe should be applied to my life:

One thing I learned was about is the importance of being united with God’s chosen people: Israel. I believe what the Bible says, “I will bless those who bless you,” (Genesis 12:3) but I didn’t really think that giving to outreaches which support to the Jewish people were necessary. I gave occasionally to this or that organization and I thought that was enough however I asked God to correct me if I was wrong.

Wednesday, January 27

I set aside the next three days to completely honor and seek God. I wanted a clear direction for what to do next with Him. This means I didn’t:
  • conduct any business 
  • talk to my mom or sisters except about spiritual matters have any recreation – no games on my iPad or secular TV. 
  • I was determined to seek only God.
The first day was tough. The seclusion wasn’t as freeing as I hoped. By the end of the day, I was missing the outside world. Did I really need to be excluded from family time at night? Would it hurt to just watch a program with them?

Monday, February 29, 2016

What is a Tetrad Blood Moon Prophet - February 27, 2016



After receiving my calling as a prophet in a very specific, unusual way, I have decided to look into what this may mean. One thing has become readily apparent: there is much confusion between the spiritual gift of a prophecy and being a prophet. 

Among the gifts given by the Holy Spirit, the Bible tells us in 1 Corinthians 12:10 (Amp), "and to another prophecy [foretelling the future, speaking a new message from God to the people]” When anointed ministers of God use this gift prolifically, people often begin to call them a prophet. This is inaccurate. They are not prophets, they are merely using the gift of the Spirit called prophecy. A prophet is a person that God actually moves upon, calling them into the office of a prophet, anointing them to be His mouthpiece to a country, a people, or even the nations.