Thursday, January 29, 2015

The Difference Between "With" and "Without" - October 17, 2014

October 17, 2014


The trials of the last month fade away as I recall how the Lord has confirmed that this is His will for me. I am going to Heaven! Maybe not tonight, maybe not even tomorrow, but He has confirmed it: I'm going. (See this story by clicking here). 

The time in between breaths becomes long as my body completely relaxes. Inside, I rejoice, praising the Lord for His goodness. I am going to Heaven! My spirit soars with joy. Tingling power flows across my body in a strong wave each time I breathe out. Again and again power floods through me like waves of a torrential downpour. 

My spirit becomes unsettled... something isn't right. The waves of energy, they are so strong but different than before. The thoughts bring an end to the surging power. What was missing? Immediately a thought slides into my mind. I wasn't worshiping the Lord, the Father and the Spirit, I was rejoicing because I was going to Heaven.

Again I relax my body. This time I focus on who Jesus is, the awesome the love of the Father, worshiping with every fiber of my being. Gentle waves of energy cascade over me like waves at the beach, surging, building, warm gentle... This is the power from God!

The core of my being is gently pushed outward, once... twice... I lose count, embracing the moment. When the power ebbs I think about what occurred: 

There seems to be a natural power in meditation and power that comes from God. If you are following me in this journey, if the Lord is calling you to visit Him in Heaven, make sure and worship Him in your meditation.


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Many people think of boot camp as a place you train for combat. Any veteran will tell you that basic training is about three things:
  • Knowing what weapons are available 
  • Learning how to use those weapons 
  • Receiving orders and following them 
Believer’s Boot Camp series is a collection of books which teach us how to hear more clearly from God with the goal to ready ourselves for a face-to-face meeting with our Lord, Jesus. The series reveals the “weapons and tools” God has given us and how to use them, so we can bring God’s kingdom to Earth. Each book in the series focuses on a single topic to clearly define one tool or weapon from our Heavenly Father. 

The series uses the Word of God to reveal all that He has given us through Jesus. The Bible is our instruction manual and the Holy Spirit is our guide to understanding it.

Why Doesn't God Speak to Me?


Eager hearts cry out, hoping for a single word to confirm that He hears us. Yet, many times the only sound is silence. Over the years I have heard several reasons why God speaks to some and not to others. One night, as I tossed and turned, I brought each of these reasons before the Lord, stating why each of them did not line up with who I thought He was. 

Words rose from my soul, pleading for Him to reveal why He has remained silent when a single word from Him would mean so much to so many. For the next few hours, God used things I learned about years ago and things I had just discovered to show why He talks to some and why He doesn’t, and in demonstrative ways. 

In His grace, He also showed me how people could hear more from Him. Basic instructions on how to hear more from God and how to be led by Him are included in this book. Thank you for taking time to consider the answers I received and share with you now.

Keys to Authority for Every Believer


There is untapped power that is easy for every Christian to access in the form of authority. The keys to this authority will unlock weapons we can use to free ourselves from the attacks of the enemy. We must be intimately aware of the bounds and limitations of our weapon if they are to be used effectively. 

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Tuesday, January 27, 2015

No Time for the Pain - August 12, 2014

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Hurried steps bring me to the print shop next door. If I am going to get these books out before I leave for the soccer tournament in Portland, I'd better hustle, I think, ignoring the ache in right hip. I slide the stack of books into the trimmer leaning forward slightly to check the placement. Pain shoots down the back of my leg. When I turn to grab the next set of books, moving my right leg is agony like I haven't felt in a long time.

Something is wrong, very wrong. "John, something is not right in my lower back." I tell the owner of the shop, "I'm not going to be able to help with the rest of the books."

"You didn't pick up anything heavy, did you?" He asks.

Thursday, January 22, 2015

What Does My Guardian Angel Look Like? - August 9, 2014

My back and neck ache from long days at work. I roll to my stomach to stretch the muscles as I begin my nightly prayers. My hands begin to tingle almost immediately. Too tired to roll over, I relax and begin worshiping the Lord.

I picture the Lord and Heaven before me, but my mind insists that up toward the ceiling, up towards the sky is the direction where Christ is. “Heaven is all around, there is no up or down, it is right in front of you,” whispers, the Holy Spirit. I recall the movie Enders Game and how they had to train their minds about movement in space. Peace surrounds my heart as my mind places the picture of the Lord somewhere before me, right in the middle of the mattress.

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Biblical Support for the Journey - July 20, 2014

July 20 2014

Seated in the third row of chairs, I tune out the basic message I’ve heard so many times, hoping that at least Tony is getting something from this service.

“Lord, I really haven’t made any breakthroughs in months now…” I pray, determined not to waste this time of devotion. “Since that first night I haven’t felt that powerful pull. Am I still going in the right direction? Is there something more I need to be doing? Please forgive my lack of faith, but I have been wrong so many times…”

I refocus on the world around me. The pastor says, “This is the longest prayer ever recorded that Jesus prayed, just before He went to ask the Father to take this task from Him:

Saturday, January 10, 2015

A Solo Mission - July 12, 2014

July 12, 2014

“Tony,” I whisper, “God is calling me into prayer and meditation. Do you want to hold my hand?”

My husband rolls over and takes my hand. I remain relaxed and whisper instructions to him, “Focus on God, on all that He has done for us. Talk to Him in your mind.”

Having already had a short prayer time, I begin worshiping and meditation. God’s presence falls quickly in gentle waves across my body. “Can you feel that?”

“I don’t feel anything.” He shrugs.

“I guess this is a solo thing,” I mutter softly. “Sorry.”

“No worries,” Tony says as he rolls over to go to sleep.

I guess Jesus never took his disciples with Him, and I believe He has called and is enabling me to do what He did… holding my hand will not bring my husband with me.


In March of 2014 I released Angels Believe in You. This book covers the last 13 years of my life:

  • Seen Angels and Demons
  • Miracles from God (medically documented)
  • Signs from God - including hearing His audible voice

All of these signs and miracles have led me to one conclusion: I believe God has been leading me, step by tiny step, on an incredible journey leading to Heaven and Back Again, not through a NDE (near death experience) but through meditation. Yes, I know it sounds a little presumptuous, a little out there, but it was not my idea. I ask repeatedly, "If this is not Your will,
please let me know. I want only what You want for my life." 

What follows is the next step in this incredible journey. All blog posts concerning this journey are available in To Heaven and Back Again which is updated as the Lord continues to take me on on this incredible journey. When I actually do go to Heaven, everyone who has bought this book will be able to download the latest copy and find out what Heaven is like.

Continue the journey with me in the other To Heaven and Back Again stories:

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Preparing for Meditation - June 7, 2014

June 7, 2014

I slide into the chair, picking at my favorite selection of salad from the unlimited buffet. “Are you feeling okay?” Tony asks.

“Just a little tired.” I hesitate briefly before continuing. “I was talking to the Lord until after 1 A.M. last night.”

“But you said you came away rested after you meditated?” He asks. “Why are you so tired?”


“It wasn’t meditating, it was more active, like talking,” I sigh. “Maybe you can help me with it. I can’t seem to stop thinking about it today.”

He nods, seeming interested in the conversation. I can’t believe this is the same man who wanted to throw out my family Bible because I never read it. “I have been trying to be more diligent in what the Lord told me to do. He said, ‘practice.’ For the last few weeks I have tried to meditate and pray more often, at least three times every week, but I keep hitting a wall. My thoughts are scattered – it’s hard to stay focused. The presence of the Lord is so light, it’s hardly there!